just a friend i think

I announced it and really want to write about. So here we go. Maybe a classic disclaimer first off?

Yes I am aware of that most people (read: men) would do anything to live following and I keep repeating myself exactly this, but still.

So M. and I recently met. We actually do know each other since some years already, but picked up contact again several months ago. During these months our friendship has grown and surely become very intensive. Although she lives in Germany, and I here in the UK, I was there for her when she broke up with her ex after almost two years and she has always supported me throughout everything that has happened to me lately. As we have been helping each other we have become the closest friends one could imagine. I can’t think I have been that open and honest with someone lately, in my life actually.

There is a common factor : we have no expectations from our friendship and leave another totally free. Distance and true friends seem to make this easy. But last weeks something has changed.

I think I should provide some more background info. One thing in our friendship has always been present. Erotica. I write erotica and M. likes to show (pictures). Wrong thoughts you pervs! I said erotica and not porn. Keep the word mystical in mind you dorks! A game which has been going on since quite some time actually.
Maybe I’ld also tell you that M. bisexual is. Passively bisexual, meaning she is very inexperienced and also doubtful in her bisexuality.

One evening while we were chatting she is teasing me and sends me, a standard game between us, some pictures. Among them, pictures of another woman. A beautiful woman!

I ask her who she is and she tells me it is the only woman she ever had something with. We spoke about her experience with S. and at the end I said her they should get in touch again. I love it when me friends pursue what they might enjoy.

M. and S. were going to meet the same weekend. From that day our contact intensified even more. We both started to behave differently, although I couldn’t say how. One just felt it. On Friday when M. and S. meet, it didn’t take 1 hour before they came online. Since that day, almost every time they were together, we have chatted… the three of us. Sometimes also in conference.

Last weekend M. and I spoke about S. I discovered that I had been the main topic on their date the day before. Soon M. told me that she was sure we would all three get on very well. Do I need to draw a picture here? Too bad, I can’t draw.

Very well meaning we would be together all three but still free and sometimes only two. Freedom, but together. A triangle. Sounds like a dream doesn’t it?

Sadly I don’t live, feel it this way. M. and I were going to spend a weekend together in some weeks (I had recently booked a week of vacation for other but not appropriate purposes anymore). I would stay at hers. It was clear that the friendship was most important, but also there were no doubts about what would happen. Now the situation is totally different. Will S. also be there? All weekend? Or not.

Will this become something or is this enough of material to destroy a friendship. Only time can tell. And no I am not whining, I know most men are jealous now and I’ll surely enjoy it. :-P